Quote from Forum Archives on June 14, 2000, 7:44 am

Posted by: designsbyfisher <designsbyfisher@...>

Hi,
Brother Brian, and other faithful prayer partners.
Please forgive me for not writing lately. Things here are still very
trying and Satan is using his favorite tool once again to bring down a
Christian. The church.
I'm still having major health problems, and although I'm at church every
Sunday, sometimes I have to make a quick exit for the rest room with the
nausea I experience from my migraines. I also have 8 teeth that are
broken and the nerves are very much exposed. Add to that the worries of
financial problems (my husband is still only making $6.60/hr - 40
hour/wk), and I'm always suffering from headaches (cluster and stress as
well as migraines). Well, I heard several church members say, "If she's
that bad off, why doesn't she just go to the doctor for help." That
hurts. I can't afford to go to the doctor. I had called to make an
appointment with one, and when they found out that I don't have
insurance, they said I had to pay 1/2 of the $250.00 visit fee before I
could even be able to see the doctor and I could pay the remainder in
the next 2 months. I just don't have it. I feel like standing up
before the church and saying, "Thank you for offering to pay for my
doctor visit!" I'm still trying to be pleasant.

Another thing that they don't understand is that I will not let my pain
run my life. I still homeschool my kids, and take them to the park
frequently to play, and take them down to the river here to swim now
that it's summer. Because I don't stay in bed all the time, they think
I'm not that bad off. My husband has even started thinking that way.
I'm not going to stay in bed, drugged up. I'm going to live the life
God gave me, and raise the children he entrusted to me to the best of my
ability. I don't want them to remember the pain, but the good times and
things we did.

Please keep me in your prayers. I'm sorry to complain so much, but I
don't have anyone here who will listen except for my children, and I
don't want to weigh them down with it.

I am also working 3 jobs here at home, while I'm teaching the kids. It
helps a little, but not much. God always provides, though, and I know
He always will.

We have a lot of family issues (not immediate, but extended) that are
taxing as well.

Please keep praying and thanks again for your love and support through
this time of my life.

In our Lord's service,
Beth Fisher
designsbyfisher@inteliport.com