ANNE PAULK: former lesbian

FORMER LESBIAN

“As a lesbian, I found hurt people just wantingsomeone to love. As a Christian, I found loving people just wantingto heal my hurt.”

I wasn’t able to say a thing after a teenage boy approached mesexually. Of course, at four years old you’re afraid of getting introuble…so you go silent. But inside, the pain of that moment beganto grow louder. I became a tomboy. I didn’t feel pretty or evenlovable. I craved special attention from my dad to make everythingall right, but I couldn’t tell him why. I began to feel beingfeminine meant being weak and vulnerable. I didn’t know what to dowith men…they just kept hurting me, so I rejected them. Once incollege, I pursued my growing attraction for other women. But as alesbian, I found most women were paired out of emotional dependencyrather than true love. That’s why I asked God to fill the void in myheart. He led me to warm, loving people who helped me see theunderlying needs that drove me into a lesbian identity. If you’restill looking for real love…and need to talk with somebody whounderstands, start by asking God.